Motivation, fasting, exercise and naps

So I've been looking at loads of thinspiration pics to help me get back on track and am determined to get small, so very small.   Fasting all the way until Saturday :"] also I keep staying up until 5 am, why am I always up at this time? Honestly I barely get anything productive done.  But most days it's okay since Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday I can sleep in (my classes don't start until after noon on Mondays and Tuesdays) and Wednesdays and Thursdays classes start at 11 am so I can still fit in a 3 - 5 hour nap before class and Fridays are horrible because class starts at 9 am which usually means no sleep because if I do go to bed, which would be around 5 or 6 am I would sleep through my alarms -_-

[Th]inspiration]  ♥

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Tummy ache, period cramps, lonely and finally money

Firstly I think tomorrow I will go out and buy either clothes or fabric or both because last semester I was so tight on money I actually only bought myself 2 pieces of clothing in the last like 5/6 months which was a onepiece and a hat. However I have some money from OSAP leftover that I can spend (I paid for tuition, textbooks and kickboxing so I can spend a bit but I think I still have Fall tuition to pay), so I thought I'd buy myself a few things, but I'll probably just buy fabric (apprx. $25), paints (apprx. $20), canvas (apprx. $10; a small one) and if I have money leftover I will buy a one piece swimsuit and a sweater (which I probably will have money to buy, but I still have to pay for my phone bill and pay off some of my loan; oh the life of a university student).
Also I'm on my period and have the worst cramps ever; I have legit been on tylenol all day yesterday and all day today and I took the last heating pad I have for my neck and put it on my pelvis and it fit perfectly and my ovaries were soothed.  And than I went and ate and got the worst stomach ache ever, so I purged just a tiny bit. All in all an interesting day, tomorrow should be fun as well:

• class 11 - 1
• buy gym membership and sign up for kickboxing
• go buy Fabric/go to Eaton centre to buy clothes/go to Winners
• go to Curry's for art supplies
• eat small pasta
• go to the gym
• read and take notes on Philosophy of Love
• paint
• clean room
• watch a movie
• sleep

Seems like it should be productive :] here's some [th]inspiration ♥

If I repeat pictures from previous posts please let me know :] thank you ♥

1 meal a day :]

So today I officially signed up for Biggest Loser competition and I am going to win! My strategy is one meal a day from Monday - Friday (pasta or stir fry) and one juice a day, plus infinite water :] On the weekends 2 bottles of smoothies (apprx. 380 cal total) only.  On Mondays, Thursdays, Fridays and once on the weekend I will go to the gym for 1 h 15 min and on Thursdays I also have kickboxing :] ♥  Also if I get down to 98lbs by the Bachelorette auction I will give myself a reward, which was supposed to be a hip microdermal but I'm going back home for the summer and I promised my mother I would not get anymore more peircings for at least a year.  So if I reach 98lbs by March 3rd I will buy myself a new cell phone (although probably not a really nice one because I don't use my cell that much and find it would be a waste of money) and a dress and heels for the auction ♥ I am so glad I signed up for Biggest Loser because we will be weighing in once a week so I have to make progress, oh and today I finally told the cook who does the pastas to wash the spatula because he always uses the same spatula for meat as for my food and I'm vegan and usually throw it out and never wanted to say anything because I thought I would sound rude but nope I did it :"}


Some [th]inspiration ♥

Binges, goals and microdermals

So as you can probably guess from the title I binged; bad two days of it : [  but I'm not giving up and my goal is 106 lbs by New Years and if by Jan.30th I get down to 98 lbs I am going to get a microdermal on my hip ♥  I want to get it intergrated into my tattoo, I think it will look so pretty ♥ Also I am growing my hair out so that next summer (not the one coming up, but the one after - so in like 1.5 years) it will be really long when I go to Europe.

So goals and rewards:

♥ gw1: 112 lbs (by 12/15/11)   reward: N/A

♥ gw2: 108 lbs (by 12/23/11)   reward: go swimming at the gym

♥ gw3: 106 lbs (by 12/31/11)   reward: concealer and new eyeliner

♥ gw4: 102 lbs (by 01/14/12)   reward: sign up for kick boxing (this will keep me motivated because I really, really want to continue kickboxing next semester)

♥ gw5: 98 lbs (by 01/31/12)   reward: hip microdermal ♥♥

♥gw6: 94 lbs (by 02/17/12)    reward: 2 pairs of pants, 1 pair of jeans and 2 crop tops

♥gw7: 88 lbs (by 03/18/12)    reward: new cell phone and a one hour back massage
 
So in four and a bit months from now I am going to lose around 30 lbs (because I honestly have no clue how much I weigh at the moment, haven't weighed myself in two months because of a lack of scale, but from my clothes I'm guessing 114 -118 lbs).  This is going to be intense but I want to get the body I have always wanted and I'm tired of progressing, hitting a plateau, binging, fasting, and progressing a little and stoping again because I have not lost anything in over 5.5 months.  Anyways :] I know I can do it and I will and on Jan.1st I will post a before picture of myself (from last year when I  weighed 134lbs) and a during photo that I will take that very day♥

Here is some [th]inspirations ♥

13 days ....

so in the title I'm refering to the last time I got my period, it was 13 days ago and I got it again yesterday...can I just say FML to my irregularity? so much pain and unhappiness. 

Also starting today (since it's past midnight) a new plan of action will take place since I eat on my periods like a lot, and so I have eaten a lot yesterday and the day before.

So plan for the next week will not be a fast since I end up binging as of late, so I will be having instead a maximum number of calories I can eat each day.

So today September 15th, 2011 - 600 cal

September 16th, 2011 - 300 cal

September 17th, 2011 - 400 cal

September 18th, 2011 - 500 cal

:] and btw I got nominated and picked as the floor events rep. ♥ I feel so loved.  and here is some [th]inspirations (which btw I finally figured out how to transfer my pictures from my ipod touch onto my laptop and I have over 5000 thinspo pics♥)