ughhh tired, cold and so much to do -_-

So one of my cuts from last night is not closing, the skin is not together and it keeps bleeding (not a lot but it's still bleeding) so I went and bought big bandages and steri strip skin closure strips but I don't think I put it on properly.  I put the steri strips on first and then a big bandaide on top and you can see it's been bleeding.  Also I am so tired and lethargic and the moment I just want to lie on my bed and do nothing, I have no energy :[ but I need to do my readings and start my essays.  On the brighter side I went with a friend shopping and bought some plates and a frying pan (yay no more using pots to fry mushrooms) sadly my friend never found winter boots to buy (no one had normal flat winter boots with good grip on the bottom in her size).

Here's some [th]inspiration ♥

Tummy ache, period cramps, lonely and finally money

Firstly I think tomorrow I will go out and buy either clothes or fabric or both because last semester I was so tight on money I actually only bought myself 2 pieces of clothing in the last like 5/6 months which was a onepiece and a hat. However I have some money from OSAP leftover that I can spend (I paid for tuition, textbooks and kickboxing so I can spend a bit but I think I still have Fall tuition to pay), so I thought I'd buy myself a few things, but I'll probably just buy fabric (apprx. $25), paints (apprx. $20), canvas (apprx. $10; a small one) and if I have money leftover I will buy a one piece swimsuit and a sweater (which I probably will have money to buy, but I still have to pay for my phone bill and pay off some of my loan; oh the life of a university student).
Also I'm on my period and have the worst cramps ever; I have legit been on tylenol all day yesterday and all day today and I took the last heating pad I have for my neck and put it on my pelvis and it fit perfectly and my ovaries were soothed.  And than I went and ate and got the worst stomach ache ever, so I purged just a tiny bit. All in all an interesting day, tomorrow should be fun as well:

• class 11 - 1
• buy gym membership and sign up for kickboxing
• go buy Fabric/go to Eaton centre to buy clothes/go to Winners
• go to Curry's for art supplies
• eat small pasta
• go to the gym
• read and take notes on Philosophy of Love
• paint
• clean room
• watch a movie
• sleep

Seems like it should be productive :] here's some [th]inspiration ♥

If I repeat pictures from previous posts please let me know :] thank you ♥

Frat parties, booze, taxis or should I say scabsis

So friday night I went to a frat party at a legit frat house in Toronto :D  but man oh man were the drinks strong :O like the hard liquor was for girls only and the beer was for everyone but wow did I get drunk, like really drunk so I left earlier than my friends.  somehow got back downtown on a subway but didn't really know where I was (I think I ended up in the financial district) so I saw a taxi (or as I kept calling it: a scabsi) asked how much it would be to get to my street and he said 10-11 dollars maximum so I got home safe, cause I may be drunk but I still have a bit of comon sense on me. 
Also one of the reasons I think I got so drunk was because for the last two days: thursday and friday, I have been throwing my food up so I was basically drinking on an empty stomach. Ya....long night but it was fun :]

Also plan for monday to friday:
Almond Milk fast - I'm not drinking soy milk anymore because I think I might be intolerant to it.  I kept getting the runs, bloating, and a few times threw up and it all started when I started regularly drinking soy milk.  So no more soy for me, but thank goodness for Almond milk, it is soo good :] and it's one of the greatest things invented by humans because it is the lowest in sugar and calories compared to other  "milk" drinks but has enough nutrients so you can use it as meal replacement when trying to lose weight.  So Almond milk fasting here I come!

[th]inspirations ♥

PS I threw up again today and I think the acid has made my lips peel :'[
PPS I think a girl on my floor is anorexic (she's extremely skinny, but does not eat a lot/does not eat in public - like I have not really seen her eat anything  except for maybe twice at the very beginning of Sept. and even than she didn't eat a lot.  and she usually sais she's not hungry when we have floor dinners/go together to the caf to eat. But who knows they're only my suspiscions). 

Anyways mucho love ♥

hmmm...it's time to pick up the pace

Firstly I have like 9 days before I return home :0 and that's when I am going to weigh myself for the first time in like a month and a week! so nervous, so I am going to do a 9 day liquid fast and intergrated into it I will do a day or so of water fasting every 2 or 3 days.  Plus I'm doing random abs everyday (http://randomabs.com/) great website :] and kickboxing every thursday plus running on days I don't work and I'm hoping that when I weigh myself I am 110 lbs. or else I will drown myself in dissapointment and shame :[   Also my hair is falling out. A lot. Very, very bad D: I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow for my cough so I will mention my hair loss and possibly get some blood work done so I know what vitamins and minerals I need to buy (I am pretty sure the hair falling out is caused by a deficiency or worst case scenario: an underactive thyroid which can be causedby drastic diet changes ie going from cows milk to soy milk suddenly).
Also my goal is to be 100 lbs by Halloween (Oct.31st) and 95 lbs. by Dec. 2nd .
I will be so happy once I reach 95 lbs :] but my UGW is 86 lbs ♥

So exercise, exercise, study, study, study, work, work, work.

♥♥Here's some [th]inspiration:

13 days ....

so in the title I'm refering to the last time I got my period, it was 13 days ago and I got it again yesterday...can I just say FML to my irregularity? so much pain and unhappiness. 

Also starting today (since it's past midnight) a new plan of action will take place since I eat on my periods like a lot, and so I have eaten a lot yesterday and the day before.

So plan for the next week will not be a fast since I end up binging as of late, so I will be having instead a maximum number of calories I can eat each day.

So today September 15th, 2011 - 600 cal

September 16th, 2011 - 300 cal

September 17th, 2011 - 400 cal

September 18th, 2011 - 500 cal

:] and btw I got nominated and picked as the floor events rep. ♥ I feel so loved.  and here is some [th]inspirations (which btw I finally figured out how to transfer my pictures from my ipod touch onto my laptop and I have over 5000 thinspo pics♥)