Motivation, fasting, exercise and naps

So I've been looking at loads of thinspiration pics to help me get back on track and am determined to get small, so very small.   Fasting all the way until Saturday :"] also I keep staying up until 5 am, why am I always up at this time? Honestly I barely get anything productive done.  But most days it's okay since Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday I can sleep in (my classes don't start until after noon on Mondays and Tuesdays) and Wednesdays and Thursdays classes start at 11 am so I can still fit in a 3 - 5 hour nap before class and Fridays are horrible because class starts at 9 am which usually means no sleep because if I do go to bed, which would be around 5 or 6 am I would sleep through my alarms -_-

[Th]inspiration]  ♥

PS if you haven't yet check out my new tumblr thinspo blog: http://loveliest-mess.tumblr.com/

Liquid fasting = success ♥

So my liquid fast was a success (although I did drink 2.63L of orange juice in just over 3 hours and have been peeing like every 20 minutes...) also I finally went to the humane society to donate some blankets and towels for the animals ♥ Also finally drinking saturday night :D I have not drank in like 3 weeks D: and I know it's bad but it's going to be on an empty stomach cause I am not breaking my fast :} just saying and I have done it a few times before.

Some [th]inspirations ♥

Conch piercing, new job, essays, exams and holidays

So I got my conch pierced on wednesday :] so happy.  I have been soo busy with easays and I have been pulling so many all nighters that my body seems to have crashed.  On Sunday I took like a billion naps and yesterday I slept from 4 - 9:30 am and than slept from 11 am - 5 pm (and that's only because my friend knocked on my door that I woke up).  Like holy moly my body just wants sleep, yet right now I can't even fall asleep.  Also 4 day liquid fast (and I'm doing the 30 hour famine friday evening - sunday morning so that helps my motivation.). 

My goals for this week are (up to Friday Dec. 2nd):

          ♥ Finish my painting

          ♥ Finish my SSH essay by tuesday

          ♥ Write rough draft of philosophy paper

          ♥ Finish SSH final proposal

          ♥ Do a four day liquid fast (juice fast) and 3 days of 200 cal

          ♥ Pay ambulance bill on friday (I keep forgetting to do that :S it's been like 3 weeks since they mailed me. 

          ♥ Buy greyhound ticket back to London (going home for a relaxing 3 week Christmas break)

          ♥ Do random abs at least twice

My list of goals/things to do seems pretty complete :] also the company I used to work for hired me back (well their Toronto location did :} ♥ so happy.  I already gave my two weeks notice to the place I work at now).  Also I'm kind of nervous about being home for three weeks, I mean I'm happy I can just relax and not worry about school or work for three weeks but my parents don't know I'm vegan.  They think I'm still a vegetarian and they think that it's bad as it is and are trying to convince me to start eating fish! I mean a month and a half ago when I came down for Thanksgiving weekend they kind of noticed and I think they kind of thought I might be vegan, but I snuk my way out of it by taking the groceries they gave me (which included cheese and a bunch of other stuff I do not eat) and telling them I ate it but I really gave it to a friend (and of course they believed me cause it's not like they're here with me in Toronto). But yeah so now I'm a tad nervous, oh and also excited since my parents told me I'm getting a bathroom scale for christmas (not sure if I told you girls before but I'm just so excited) and I decided that once I get back I am going to buy myself a food scale so I can measure food accurately because a lot of the time the packages are off.

Anywho here is some [th]inspirations ♥ Enjoy ♥

long time since I last posted.

I most definitely gained weight but I am back on track and for the first time in months in months I did a fast :] but ummm I have not been sleeping well.....more like not at all.  I pull so many all nighters and when I don't I usually don't go to bed until 3,4 or 5 am.  Also my blood results came in last month: I have extremely low iron (a woman's levels are supposed to be between 50 -70 mine was 15) I bought the iron supplements but have only taken it twice in the last month. Also I had a really bad month for throwing up, I did it so many times in october, at least 5 times a week.
Anyways my mother told me she's getting me a bathroom scale for christmas :"] I am so happy! Today I plan on consuming no more than 600 calories ( already ate 200 calories), possibly doing some abb work outs and sleep after I get back from work.  I'm going back home in the middle of December and I hope to weigh 103 lbs ♥ I have about 4.5 weeks to lose 15 lbs (I think? I am not sure how much I weigh at the moment).  And after getting back on track again this feeling has come back. I never know what this feeling is but it fills me, completes me and the hunger and the haze return and I feel pleasantly happy.


Some [th] inspirations ♥