I broke my pomise and now my body hates me more than ever . . .

Remember my last post? How I said I wouldn't make myself throw up for at least the next 2 weeks? Ya well that didn't even last two days, I threw up again today.  Although let me tell you it wasn't easy, my body was refusing to let any food come up but I'm stubborn and managed to get some out.  I have to stop, I know I do, my body is totally unhappy with me :[   So I made a plan to help guide me (I always make these lists but never end up following them through till the end, but they help keep me somewhat in line):

• Tomorrow I will do a liquid fast that will continue until Friday where I will only eat enough to not make anyone suspiscious (it's christmas eve and that's when we celebrate chritmas = mandatory family dinner) and on christmas I might be able to get away with a liquid fast.  Friday I will also go to the gym for two hours.

• On Sunday and Monday I will eat one apple per day.

• Tuesday is going to be a liquid fast and Zumba at the gym.

• Wednesday is going to be a water only fast and two hours at the gym.

• Thursday another liquid fast + 2 hours at gym.

• Friday (New Years Eve) is going to be one apple and no more than a fist size of food at the party

• Saturday  liquid fast + workout at home.

• Sunday will be one fruit (orange) and a piece of toast + gym ? [ if not working that day].

Luv you Lots, 




                   Air ♥