Feeling unwell and there's still christmas shopping to be done....

So I did a one day fast on saturday and since than whatever I eat (even if it's a normal or small meal) I just have to throw it up, I just do or else I know it's going to turn into fat because ever since last wednesday I haven't really had anything in my system (I threw up wednesday, thursday, friday, sunday, monday, and today).   My throat feels raw, my abdomen hurts now and than, I feel tired and just in general unwell.  I might stay home tomorrow, sleep all day, and than I have to go to a "holiday dinner" with friends and I'm dreading it because I know I'll have to  throw that up too.  Also I did Zumba today, it made me feel better physically but for some reason (maybe because there wasn't that many people today) I saw myself negatively during the class (there are  mirrors all around the room).  I couldn't stop comparing and criticizing myself in my head during Zumba and usually I just forget my problems and have fun in that class. 
Also I took two laxatives and a tonalin CLA, but in all truth I do not think the laxatives work.  It sais take one and I always take one or more but it does not work.  Maybe it was because I bought a "gentle" laxative....I didn't want to anyone to think I was using them for weight loss so I told the health store lady (this was in Auguts I believe) that I just had "digestive" problems occasionaly so she recommended this "gentle & natural" one. It's not like I was going to say to her "No, I was actually looking for a strong laxative that works asap." so I ended up buying the one she recommended.  Oh well I took some more so we'll see what happens, and I'm thinking of buying some diuretics as well in the hopes of a faster weightloss without water gain.
Also I still have christmas shopping to do and three secret santas.... :S yikes! Plus I need to buy some "necessities" for myself  ;]  (by that I mean boxing gloves and shoes) and I need to buy ingredients for Pad Thai that I am bringing for fridays Pot Luck at work [the holidays involve WAY too much food for my liking].


PS I said I'd write everyday and look here I haven't, so my apologies. ♥



Luv you Lots,






                       Air ♥