Last Minute Dentist Appointment Had Me in a PANIC!

So my mother decided to call in and put me into my older brothers dentist appointment because I haven't been in a bit over year now.  I was freaking out because I know dentists can tell if you make yourself throw up by the way you're enamel is and in what places (I have been purging since last November but I have had like a month or two in spring where I didn't throw up).  I heard that they keep it confidential and don't usually bring it up, but I could tell he noticed it because he commented that I brush really well but he also commentedon how yellow the back of my teeth were and asked if I drank a lot of coke, or tea.  I told him I drink a lot of starbucks, and he started talking about how expensive they are.  I really think he realizes, but I'm hoping that maybe he fell for the coffee excuse?

Ah well, as long as he doesn't tell and I do not think he will. 


Luv u Lots, 




          Air ♥

Snowstorm continues, no school for the third day in a row ♥

So the snowstorm continues, we were really close to announcing a state of emergency but we r not.  Tomorrow for the third day in a row all schools, universities, and colleges will be closed, as well as the city buses will not be running at all tomorrow :O.  But I must admit this is more relaxing than winter or summer break, because during those times off I still work, but today? Oh no I got to be lazy, not worry about school or work.  I managed to get the skirt of my dress finished, now all I have to do is buy a zipper and sew the bodice and skirt together :D. Before I started to sew I had to clean my room first so now you can actually see my floor, I did some crunches, ate and purged (a lot, I kept making myself throw up till I was sure nothing else would come up), took a hot bath at like 2 in the afternoon, didn't do my make up, drank hot cocoa and was just plain lazy and relaxed. A weekend plus 2 days of being stuck inside PLUS knowing you still get one more day off school, totally relaxes and actually makes you want to do stuff [like clean your room LOL].   I really can't complain [except that I couldn't do zumba tonite :[ ], and my plan for tomorrow is to sleep in (yet again), do my ISP work that we were supposed to work on in class and hand in thursday, do a mini essay, re-paint my nails,organize my schoolwork, exercize, figure out how to put on fake eyelashes etc.

So what would you do in a three day snowday? Because it doesn't happen that often ;]



Lots of Luv,


           Air ♥





PS here's a link about the snowstorm

http://www.lfpress.com/news/london/2010/12/07/16465386.html

Bus delays, and facts

The snowstorm caused city bus delays, and I didn't have to go into work today.  I'm not upset because I worked 10 extra hours this weekend so loosing a few hours wasn't a big deal.  Because I got to stay home I decided to surf the web and search up more about gluten free diets, benefits and facts and I got some pretty interesting information.  I found out that a lot of people (estimated 1 in every 100) have celiac disease, experts say that 50 + % of the population probably have ity and most don't even know it.  Some experts say that most people have it but it doesn't develop or show serious symptoms until later on in life or after something triggers it (ex.  death in family, illness, car crash etc.).   Also our digestive systems don't fully digest wheat, and wheat can cause toxins to leak into our bloodstream, but wheat isn't bad it has a ton of health benefits too.  It might seem harder to find the right things to eat on this diet but there is always at least one grocery store to be found that has a whole section dedicated to gluten free food [I stumbled upon this once and was amazed at all the food and variety].  Remember that no matter what kind of diet you are attempting, do your research.
On another note I ended up eating an apple and two pieces of chocolate :[  If tomorrow is a snow day as well I will try my very hardest not to eat since I won't be able to go to the gym with all that snow on the roads.  I will sleep, sleep, go on computer, clean up room a bit, nap, computer, homework, workout  in basement, read, computer, and sleep. I really need to clean up my room a bit so that I can start sewing again, I have to finish a dress by December 17th [my own deadline I put for myself].


Luv you Lots, 




                   Air ♥

My second post within an hour, and a faboulous idea ;] ♥

I know this is the second time I'm posting within the hour,  but I wanted to share with you a faboulous idea that I have had for some time now but that I have finally decided to act on; I have decided to go gluten free. I know this is a big decision but like I said I have thought about this for a long time.  The idea first started with me wanting to stop eating breads and pastas than I read a book called "Gluten-free girl" by Shauna James Ahern. Let me tell you this, the book is really a great read because it doesn't only focus on a gluten free diet but on our daily eating habits and how we can rediscover food in a good way.  I also think this will help me maintain a healthy diet and keep my weight in check after fasts.   I know it's a big decision and that maybe some people think that I am taking the fact that I can eat gluten for granted, but it's my choice and I am going to take it.  
Now I will not only be posting about my weightloss but also about my new diet, wish me the best of luck :]




Lots of Luv,




                Air ♥

Snowday ♥

From the title you can probably guess what I'm going to write about first, yes that's right we got a snow day.  So that means no school which is good but it also means having to venture out into waist high snow (in some parts) to get to the bus stop to get to work later on :/ . Also since today is December 6th we got a small present from our parents, it's a tradition from Europe.  In my present I got some chocolates including Ferrero Rocher ( about 5 of them) which I ate, so there goes another attempt at a second day of fasting.  Sometimes when I do that I decide to keep eating because I think well I already ruined a day of fasting so I already lost, but now I stop myself from doing that.  If I eat, sure I lost in control but I won't keep eating, that's the point; to never give up even if you think you lost.  So even though I ate those chocolates, I am going to go exercise and I am not going to eat today. 



Lots of Luv, 




                 Air ♥
                                                                     

Snow, it's a love/hate relationship.

So today it snowed, than it looked like a blizzard out there, and it kept snowing :0  I love snow if I'm not outside. What I mean is I love snow if I am inside where it's warm, because in all truth I am not a cold weather person, but it is sure pretty to look at :] .

At work we got pizza ordered for us [we did really well in sales and it was snowing really hard] and my plan for a second day of liquid fasting got flushed down the drain.  Even though I ate 4 slices (I LOVE pizza), I am not disappointed in myself ..... well I'm not disappointed because I actually purged after I got home.  I don't know why but it feels really disgusting having a full stomach espescially after a day of being empty.  I haven't weighed myself yet and I won't weigh myself until wednesday morning and I'll post an update of my results :].  Right now I weigh about 120.8 lbs so thats 54.79 kg. 



Luv you Lots , 




                     Air ♥

A work, work, work, and a fast, fast, fast..... a pretty succesful day ♥

So today was a tiring day, cause I worked, worked, worked but I managed to stay true to my fast.  I didn't eat at all today and maybe that is why I am so tired, but the bright side is I did it :] and I am proud of myself.   I also started weighing myself in kilograms instead of pounds, I don't really know the reason why I choose to change the way I weigh myself but it gets me more motivated. 

I shopped some more today, and I bought myself a new plain journal and scrapbook paper to decorate it ^_^  because I have about 2 pages left of my old journal and I have soo much to write.  When I was younger I used to try so hard to write in a journal everyday day but I only ever wrote like 2 pages than never wrote in it again, but ever since highschool (or to be more specific gr 10) I have gone through about 4 journals.  Writing things out really helps, it's like getting some of what you have bottled up in you out.  When there's something that gets you mad, sad, happy etc, sometimes you just want to tell someone but can not so the best way is to write it out.  Some people have different/several ways of letting their "hurt" out; some dance, some exercise, some go for a run, some paint etc.  Is there a way you try to unwind?



Lots of Luv, 

               Air ♥

New Goals, and confessions

So I've come to the realization I need new goals, I need to get back on track.  I have also decided to post one post a day until the New Year :] .   My new goals are to go to Zumba classes every tuesday evening, and to go to the gym at least 3 times a week.  For those who do not know what Zumba classes are, well to be brief its a class where you dance off your calories, it's really fun and effective.  Within the first 10 minutes you are already sweating and by the end you feel great.  I know this will sound like I'm trying to promote it (and in a way I am) but  I would highly recommend trying this class if it is offered at your gym, it really is a good way to get into exercising and staying fit.
Also my workplace is doing so well there are extra shifts that we can take so a big yay to that because now I can earn a bit more for christmas and to pay for my plane ticket :'] .  Today (payday) I ended up spending more than half my paycheck oopsies ;] LOL but for once I don't feel at all bad for spending a lot of money in one day, in fact I feel really good.
So my plan for tomorrow [saturday] is school, shopping than work.  Tomorrow is also a fasting day, it'll be the first day of a two day liquid fast, because I somehow managed to gain three pound over the last week and a half :/ .
I will write again tomorrow, adieux mes amours ♥


Luv u lots, 




         Air  ♥

Pre Fast preparation is fail, but mission must go on as planned !

As you can probably conclude from the title the liquids only and one chocolate bar was not succesful. I ended up eating normal small meals but I will not fail the fast.  No matter how many mistakes you make keep going forward and soon enough you'll reach the end (how cheesy is that? but nonetheless it's true :] ).                           I am a spontaneous sort of person so even if I write a schedule of things to do and when to do them I most often don't go by the book, but if I didn't write down everything I needed and/or wanted to do I would probably never get anything done.   So my detailed liquid plan for tomorrow's fast that I am going to try to follow as closely as possible:

8:00 am _ one cup of warm whole milk (160 cal)
Between 9:00 am and 2:00 pm _ 1 bottle of water (0 cal)
3:00 pm _ one juicebox (90 cal)
6:00 pm _ one cup of warm milk (160 cal)

Total: 310 calories

Exercise Plan:

20 crunches x 3 in the morning
160 jumping jacks in the morning
20 crunches x 4 in the evening
15 minute fast walk in the evening

Anyone else doing fasts, remember that it is important to take your vitamins and keep hydrated throughout the day and that you should break your fast the proper way so that it doesn't mess up your body.


Lots of Luv,


      Air ♥

Fasting, religion and body image

I've made up my mind to start a fast this week, my plan for tomorrow is no more than 500 calories in liquids and one chocolate bar (250 calories) this will give me the energy I need throughout the day.  The day after, on Tuesday, I am doing an all liquid fast with no more than 500 calories in liquids than on Wednesday and Tursday it will be a water only fast.  Friday I will consume no more than 600 calories in liquids and than Saturday will be the same.  Sunday will be the last day of the fast and that too will be a water only fast.  The fast will last from Tuesday till Sunday [6 days in total] that's the longest fast I have ever done, but I am determined to win.   I don't believe fasts are bad, I have heard of people going on fasts for religious purposes and although mine is a different purpose I still do not think it is a bad choice.  It helps cleanse your body, and mind in a way.
Although I have done fasts before, I never tell anyone about them and it's sometimes funny how easy it is to get away with it and no one realizes it.  It is almost like they're blind, like they chose not to see what's happening.



Luv u Lots,


                Air ♥

Anger, shopping and addiction

We all get mad, upset and downright angry sometimes and there's nothing wrong with that.  We just need to know how to deal with these feelings, some people eat when they get upset, others don't, some scream, some stay silent, some use physical violence, while others cry, some paint, or cook it all varies depending on the type of the person you are.  For me well I tend to spend my money (not that I don't already), I will go and shop because it helps calm me down, but I also go to the gym (if it's open) and exercise all my anger out.   Looking at how I vent my anger, and sadness I think I deal with it pretty ok, I mean some people deal with feelings in pretty drastic and/or dangerous ways.  If you are a person who deals with these feelings in a not so good way, you can always try and find a new outlet, for exemple exercising is quite a good outlet because it raises your endorphin levels which makes you feel better overall. You could try writing, drawing, running, or even taking a long hot bath, or even punching a punching bag and letting it all out. 


Lots of Luv , 


       Air ♥

long gap, so much to tell, so much to do...

So first things first, my weight loss success and loss. I managed to get down to 118 lbs but than I gained back to 122lbs :[ but I will be starting a "be thin for Christmas" competition with myself and my goal is to weigh 108 lbs by Christmas  :D .
Secondly I dropped my first period class(music) and so now I get to sleep in and get some rest I so dearly need. You see from all my binging and purging, and fasts my health has taken quite a toll, but you see what I'm doing is sacrifice [ giving up something good for something better] and yes I know in logic health is better but for me better is thin. You see you know you're wrong but you so desperately want it to be right because you know you're going to do it anyway,  I know going to extremes is bad but I'm still going to do it. 

My first post in over a month sounds a bit on the grim/not so good side, but tomorrow I will post a lighter topping :]




oh and I have a follower now ^_^ ♥

Luv you Lots ,

            Air ♥