Here we go again, one big, never ending circle.

So basicallly I have gotten back into the bad habit of throwing up a lot, except it's getting worse.  I have been throwing up like twice a day and throwing up until I am almost certain all the food has come up.  My tummy hurts, my head hurts, I'm tired, have no energy, my lips have started peeling from the stomach acid and the roof of my mouth is all scratched up and my tummy really hurts. But I have no scale, I don't know how much I weigh and that absolutely scares me, therefore I have to make sure I don't gain any weight, I must work harder. My mother said she would buy me a scale for christmas but that's too far off and I am so scared to weigh myself this saturday when I get back home for thanksgiving.  I feel like I'm falling back into the cycle except falling harder into it.

Frat parties, booze, taxis or should I say scabsis

So friday night I went to a frat party at a legit frat house in Toronto :D  but man oh man were the drinks strong :O like the hard liquor was for girls only and the beer was for everyone but wow did I get drunk, like really drunk so I left earlier than my friends.  somehow got back downtown on a subway but didn't really know where I was (I think I ended up in the financial district) so I saw a taxi (or as I kept calling it: a scabsi) asked how much it would be to get to my street and he said 10-11 dollars maximum so I got home safe, cause I may be drunk but I still have a bit of comon sense on me. 
Also one of the reasons I think I got so drunk was because for the last two days: thursday and friday, I have been throwing my food up so I was basically drinking on an empty stomach. Ya....long night but it was fun :]

Also plan for monday to friday:
Almond Milk fast - I'm not drinking soy milk anymore because I think I might be intolerant to it.  I kept getting the runs, bloating, and a few times threw up and it all started when I started regularly drinking soy milk.  So no more soy for me, but thank goodness for Almond milk, it is soo good :] and it's one of the greatest things invented by humans because it is the lowest in sugar and calories compared to other  "milk" drinks but has enough nutrients so you can use it as meal replacement when trying to lose weight.  So Almond milk fasting here I come!

[th]inspirations ♥

PS I threw up again today and I think the acid has made my lips peel :'[
PPS I think a girl on my floor is anorexic (she's extremely skinny, but does not eat a lot/does not eat in public - like I have not really seen her eat anything  except for maybe twice at the very beginning of Sept. and even than she didn't eat a lot.  and she usually sais she's not hungry when we have floor dinners/go together to the caf to eat. But who knows they're only my suspiscions). 

Anyways mucho love ♥