Old habits die hard. Actually they don't die at all.

So when I went shopping I bought art supplies and included I had bought pexiglass and an artist knife for etching.  The knife is small, precise and sharp and well so easy to cut with and I ended up cutting my hip/thigh again (one was pretty deep compared to my other ones) and cut on my feet as well.  I only did it once before after I came back from Christmas and today I just well cut again.

Sore tummy, old habits, and periods.

Ughhh so I have eaten a lot during the last two days, but because I'm on my period it all just comes out (I know too much info) and a lot of it is undigested? I know, how gross is that?
Also something overcame me: I calmly took some scissors and managed to get a razor blade out of one of my shaving razors, I cleaned it out in boiled water and cut myself three times on my thigh.  They were pretty deep and bled alot (and bled through the bandaid, so I took a shower and put a giant band aid over the two that are the closest together - one of which is pretty deep).  I haven't cut that deep in years, or never, and usually it's when I'm distressed, but not today. Well yesterday and Thursday I had a bit of a mental break down (too little sleep + exams + low grades + people being rude and irritating) and had a bit of a crying fit in my room but went out both times on a run to calm down.  Today I don't even know, I just had this urge, this though I had to surpress. I don't know if I'm even making sense.

Anywho that's not important :] here's some [th]inspirations: