So I fasted today :] and I bought a blow up love doll for my friends birthday (What can I say? I'm just a fabulous gift buyer ;] ). Anyways I'm still not sure what I am doing for next year :/ I applied for residence today and will accept the sociology program but if I do not get off the wait list before I leave for Europe I might cancel it, I dunno :[ . Ahhh decisions, decisions..... Oh btw I had a most wonderful dream and I just absolutely have to share it with you, I had a dream to put it in most simple of terms where I had a whole room full of shoes, all different and pretty and set up like they would be in a shoe store and I was absolutely in a very happy place. Ha ha I know it was random but I felt like sharing, also I find it comforting to watch the food network and/or cooking channels on youtube when I am fasting or restricting, it's almost like if I watch other people make and eat food that I get full? I do not know how to word it but ya I like watching the food network and than when I fast some people in my house piss me off cause they eat and eat and eat (no surprise it's my dad) and it really bugs me. He always does this, and it's not only that he eats a lot all the time but that he eats so unhealthy and mixes foods together, like he'll take two pieces of bread put a huge chunk (I'm not even exagerating he will put like at least a half inch chunk) of butter on both slices, proceeded by some kind of meat, sourcream etc. He'll also have like spaghetti, sour cream, salsa, cheese, it's pretty gross actually and it just bugs the hell out of me espescially when I'm fasting or restricting. Maybe it is because I am trying so hard to lose weight and stay in shape and he is not when really he should be. I'm not saying he should fast but maybe cut down a lot on the fat and meat intake and stop eating after 9 pm and actually exercise at the gym and not just swim for 30 minutes once or twice a week.
Ahh just needed to rant :] ♥
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