Pre Fast preparation is fail, but mission must go on as planned !

As you can probably conclude from the title the liquids only and one chocolate bar was not succesful. I ended up eating normal small meals but I will not fail the fast.  No matter how many mistakes you make keep going forward and soon enough you'll reach the end (how cheesy is that? but nonetheless it's true :] ).                           I am a spontaneous sort of person so even if I write a schedule of things to do and when to do them I most often don't go by the book, but if I didn't write down everything I needed and/or wanted to do I would probably never get anything done.   So my detailed liquid plan for tomorrow's fast that I am going to try to follow as closely as possible:

8:00 am _ one cup of warm whole milk (160 cal)
Between 9:00 am and 2:00 pm _ 1 bottle of water (0 cal)
3:00 pm _ one juicebox (90 cal)
6:00 pm _ one cup of warm milk (160 cal)

Total: 310 calories

Exercise Plan:

20 crunches x 3 in the morning
160 jumping jacks in the morning
20 crunches x 4 in the evening
15 minute fast walk in the evening

Anyone else doing fasts, remember that it is important to take your vitamins and keep hydrated throughout the day and that you should break your fast the proper way so that it doesn't mess up your body.


Lots of Luv,


      Air ♥

Fasting, religion and body image

I've made up my mind to start a fast this week, my plan for tomorrow is no more than 500 calories in liquids and one chocolate bar (250 calories) this will give me the energy I need throughout the day.  The day after, on Tuesday, I am doing an all liquid fast with no more than 500 calories in liquids than on Wednesday and Tursday it will be a water only fast.  Friday I will consume no more than 600 calories in liquids and than Saturday will be the same.  Sunday will be the last day of the fast and that too will be a water only fast.  The fast will last from Tuesday till Sunday [6 days in total] that's the longest fast I have ever done, but I am determined to win.   I don't believe fasts are bad, I have heard of people going on fasts for religious purposes and although mine is a different purpose I still do not think it is a bad choice.  It helps cleanse your body, and mind in a way.
Although I have done fasts before, I never tell anyone about them and it's sometimes funny how easy it is to get away with it and no one realizes it.  It is almost like they're blind, like they chose not to see what's happening.



Luv u Lots,


                Air ♥

Anger, shopping and addiction

We all get mad, upset and downright angry sometimes and there's nothing wrong with that.  We just need to know how to deal with these feelings, some people eat when they get upset, others don't, some scream, some stay silent, some use physical violence, while others cry, some paint, or cook it all varies depending on the type of the person you are.  For me well I tend to spend my money (not that I don't already), I will go and shop because it helps calm me down, but I also go to the gym (if it's open) and exercise all my anger out.   Looking at how I vent my anger, and sadness I think I deal with it pretty ok, I mean some people deal with feelings in pretty drastic and/or dangerous ways.  If you are a person who deals with these feelings in a not so good way, you can always try and find a new outlet, for exemple exercising is quite a good outlet because it raises your endorphin levels which makes you feel better overall. You could try writing, drawing, running, or even taking a long hot bath, or even punching a punching bag and letting it all out. 


Lots of Luv , 


       Air ♥

long gap, so much to tell, so much to do...

So first things first, my weight loss success and loss. I managed to get down to 118 lbs but than I gained back to 122lbs :[ but I will be starting a "be thin for Christmas" competition with myself and my goal is to weigh 108 lbs by Christmas  :D .
Secondly I dropped my first period class(music) and so now I get to sleep in and get some rest I so dearly need. You see from all my binging and purging, and fasts my health has taken quite a toll, but you see what I'm doing is sacrifice [ giving up something good for something better] and yes I know in logic health is better but for me better is thin. You see you know you're wrong but you so desperately want it to be right because you know you're going to do it anyway,  I know going to extremes is bad but I'm still going to do it. 

My first post in over a month sounds a bit on the grim/not so good side, but tomorrow I will post a lighter topping :]




oh and I have a follower now ^_^ ♥

Luv you Lots ,

            Air ♥