All those children we love ♥

My friends sister's cancer came back and they say she's dying and I cried.  I cried because I can't even image what it would be like to lose a sibling, let alone my sister.  I cried because I knew I couldn't say or do anything to change any of this or make her feel better.  I cried because I was scarred for her, I cried because her sister is only a child and I cried because her sister is dying.   It's hard when you find out someone has a critical illness but it's different when they tell you that that someone is dying.   I'm praying and thinking about my friend and her sister and all those people in the world who are suffering, terminally ill, disabled, or forgotten and just everyone in general♥

♥  Please don't forget to be kind to everyone you meet, u never know what they might be going through ♥

djksjfomodfodfmv :] ♥ I Love u guys ♥

some [th] inspirations as promised :] 

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Wow long time since I last posted

So it's been awhile but a lot has happened, and I am back on track with my weight :]  planing to lose 10 more pounds in the next 2 weeks before I leave for Europe and I'm still going to be updating to this blog in the summer just not as much but I will be starting a new blog for my travels and adventures as I told my friends I would but couldn't possibly use this blog... well obv not right? I mean this blog has so much detail and would reveal that I have en ED but I will post a link to my new blog for the summer which should be up sometime next week :]
Also I'm going to the dentist today .... I think I'm gonna die, I have been throwing up a lot lately and I know he'll notice.... he noticed last time but just asked if I was drinking lots of coffee cause the backs of my teeth were yellow, but than he remarked that I must drink a lot of coffee to get them that colour, he kinda seemed doubtful that it was coffee.  Ahh but I'm 18 so he can't really say anything, well he can to me but not to my mother, I just hope he does not notice cause I have started brushing my teeth more times a day than ever before so hopefully but than again he might notice that my throat's all scratched up and red ..... oh dearies......

Also as a side note I had a bunch of asian thinspo I was going to upload but my uploader is not working? whaaa? I know it sucks :[ but next time I post I'll hopefully be able to post some more  [th]inspirations.



      Luv you Lots,
                        Air ♥ 

Countdown, weight down, players, parties, booze and maybe things are less confusing? ♥

So I may have figured out what I am doing for next year;  I talked to my dad and he agrees with it but I'm not sure my mom will. . . and I was going to talk to her about it today but ummm how should I say this she is a bit drunk.  So my plan is to stay here in this town and attend an art program offered at a high school here, the courses count towards university and it's not exactly a victory lap because you need to have your high school diploma to attend it and you needed to go through an interview process.  I got accepted in like November so I put it aside as my plan b of plan b for the next year and realistically I think it might be what I am going to do.   And I want to re apply for fashion next year so I need to raise my average so either way I'd need to take more courses next year to bump up my average.   Well I think I have one part of my life kinda stabled down, but my social life is wack, total wack.  I just party, and party and I love it cause I always loose weight after a weekend of drinking, working and partying, but it does leek into your emotional stability and you kinda feel unstable (not sure if that made total sense).  So what I am trying to say is that my next year is figured out but my emotional and social life is unstable and I feel like I am going down fast,  I have been throwing up a lot, fasting a lot and restricting a lot and I will loose 4 more lbs before Friday (prom♥) and I just can't deal with stuff no more, well I can but can't.  Ahh see how confusing I am.... Oh I forgot to mention I got a second tattoo done on Friday :] 

                          Lots of Love, 

                                                 Air ♥